An epiphany..

albeit a rather sad one.

It IS me. Or at least a goodly portion of my problems are from me.

I think it's a lot of stress .. or at least that's the current word for it. We are moving, remodeling, and selling our house, all at once. Since any two of those things are marriage killers, I can see the problem.

Of course, it's also that I'm moving from comfortable if boring surroundings to something new - and I haven't dealt with "new" for over 25 years. Also, I've been with this company for about 18 years, so I have senority and a modicum of respect built up. Four weeks of vacation will be hard to replace right out of the box, and who knows if the pay will be as good. I can only hope.

Anyhow. . in restrospect I've been snappish and irritable for months .. and I guess it finally came to a head.

Obviously this doesn't help the poor person down below who has a "man problem" but almost everything else I can think of will be helped by a hefty dose of "it's my fault" when I actually MEAN it.

And of course, when I do something positive about it.

Didn't I say "life is hard" down there somewhere? Well, nothing has changed ..