It's been several days since I wrote here. I guess that may be a good sign - I HAVE come to look at my mantra several times.
I'm still having a problem, but it's nothing like as sharp. I'm trying to analyze it and see what the real issue is. There's always something that is the root cause of .. everything.
I'm guessing the root of this one is simple - I don't want to be left out. Running, and jumping - or playing games, or whatever - it's all the same. We don't want to be left out.
My two friends can't really see that since they are stable - they are not the ones being left out. And it's fairly subtle - it almost has to be experienced by someone to know what I'm saying. But .. when two friends that used to be YOUR best friends start spending more and more time with each other. Doing things, running around and talking together .. and I'm always welcome, but it's not comfortable so many times.
So. I'm going to do what I should have done long ago.
Just let it lie.
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